eta: just after publishing this post- there was a mysterious delivery on my doorstep. a favorite treat from my favorite treat shop!! whoever did this, you sure softened my hormonal heart. thank you, thank you, thank you.
i'm actually excited for tomorrow, however. i have a few fabulous handmade goods to giveaway. be sure and come back to win. and i promise i'll be in a good mood.
from a favorite hymn of mine: "when upon life's billows you are tempest- tossed; when you are discouraged thinking 'all is lost'. count your blessings! name them one by one; count your many blessings see what god has done!" i am so excited for this month of putting our worries into perspective and focusing on our abundance. i am greatly looking forward to a feast of real thanksgiving for all we have, and i am going to try to spend the whole month thinking and writing about the blessings in my life.
no matter the price of gas, no matter how hard it is to make your mortgage payment or rent, this holiday season is a wonderful time to remember that if you own more than two pairs of shoes, can eat six straight meals, and have a change of underwear you are one of the richest 5% of the world. as americans, there is so much available to us, all of us, if we want it and are willing to work for it. how empowering! and when you open your eyes to how so much of the world is living, we can be nothing but grateful for our options.
and so, the first of many blessing counting sessions this month:
i am grateful to have found my soul mate, and for the funniest, coziest little girl on planet earth. i am grateful that grant and i were able to go to college. we are first generation in both of our families to go, and even though it's rough paying back our loans, we were able to get educations and have the ability to support our family, and that is priceless! i am grateful that i can believe in god and worship as i choose, and even if others disagree with my views, i am guaranteed the right to them. i am grateful that there are men and women who are willing to give their lives to protect my family from terror. i am grateful that my mother never succumbed to the pressures of her generation to have smaller families- my five siblings are my best friends. i am grateful for my struggle with infertility, as it not only makes mothering the one i have so much more precious, but also gives me empathy for the struggles of other women...and it keeps me on my knees. i am grateful for my friends who don't care if i call them back and forgive me my foibles. i am grateful for the talents i have been given, but also for the many weaknesses that keep me dependent on god. i am grateful for this silly blog, where i can air out my thoughts and feelings have them met with warmth and friendship. i am grateful for books and electronic yahtzee, my beloved bathroom companions. i am grateful for public libraries, where i have learned far more than in all 25 years of formal schooling- and for only "a buck fifty in late fees". i am grateful for the beauty of the earth. i am grateful for delicious food. i am grateful for bathtubs. i am grateful for thrift stores. i am grateful for the office. i am grateful for toasters. ok, i'm getting silly now (but seriously, i'm super grateful for many silly things).
"the pilgrims made seven times more graves than huts. no americans have been more impoverished than these who, nevertheless, set aside a day of thanksgiving." -h westermayer.
i am happy for this time of thanksgiving. a time to realize again the constant need to reach out to those less fortunate than me. here's to focusing on the positive, and to living a month of humble gratitude. let's feast!