[MSW Commencement ceremony at USC / In the waiting room at my office- Wasatch Family Therapy Utah County]
In many ways, the last three years of my life have been the hardest I've experienced. In other ways it was the most amazing.
Hard: Didn't sleep at all at least one night a week to do research, study, and write papers. Fatigue. Training to be a trauma and addiction therapist means you live in the land of trauma... all... day. Fatigue. Intense classroom round tables where I was forced to really know and defend what I believe and what social justice means to me. Not having time to care for my body physically. Not having time to care for my soul creatively. Fatigue. Balancing the needs of my family and my most important priorities with the constant looming of due dates.
Amazing: Wow, what a husband Grant is. The whole grad school thing was as difficult for him- he had to pick up my serious slack in keeping our household running, keep me comforted, and his career rolling. CATE! She brought me diet cokes and was so patient with my scattered life! We lived in a wonderful place with wonderful friends and support. Like, led there for the best supportive neighbors ever. SO blessed to serve as Young Women's pres during this time. Really, the calling was not in the hard category, but in the tender merciful blessing of the Lord category. It gave me mental permission to put my textbooks down and feast on the scriptures everyday, got me to the temple more than I would have found time for, and I felt a personal magnification that allowed me to get all I needed to get done in a day (an inhuman amount). Also, those young women! Major source of happiness to serve them and teach them, and feel their love. Opportunity to work for amazing agencies, grow, grow, grow, help individuals get clean, work through abusive histories, and find peace in their hearts.
Obviously, the amazing outweighed the hard, and that's just a quick, off the top of my head, list. Really, I could go on forever about the blessings and lessons and growth I am so grateful for. Even the struggles were so important for my personal growth.
So, I graduated about a year ago. Passed my clinical exams. We just bought our first home and we're really busy fixing it up. Still praying for babies. I work for Wasatch Family Therapy and see clients several days a week while Cate is in school. I love it. It's hard. But it's more amazing.