a little winter sunshine

cate's been missing living under her cousies so we had to have them come play at our playground. i really liked reading in the sun. i miss the sun.

what else did i do today? not much. a close friend of mine and i were conversing over instagram about how the grass is always greener on the other side. meaning, she saw my picture of bath water running with a book next to it that i indulge in daily and was jealous of my "me time". but i see pictures of her sunny and sandy life in san clemente with more kids than she has arms for and my stomach flips thinking about how much i want that life. cause in truth, all that me time makes me feel guilty and a like a waste of space. that was a harsh way to say it, but i really do fight that feeling.

i read something today that said, in effect, "the grass is greener where you water it". i know i know. so, smudgie, old pal, let's both watch our favorite musical, guys and dolls, (well it's my second favorite musical, but i think it's our combined favorite) tomorrow- and you revel in the curly haired blessings screaming around you while you're trying to hear marlon brando singing, and i'll revel in the peace and quiet around me and think about what a gift it is that i can sit and be still. deal? and then you go look at the sunset on the beach and i'll just be straight up jealous. woops, there i go again.

Comments

[glor]

i concur

[Stephanie C.]

As always, your posts feel as if I could have written them. Having an only when you so desperately want more - well, I know what you feel. But I like that - the grass is greener when you water it - but I agree with the "straight up jealous part" too. I'm tired of feeling jealous though.

[Rachel]

Things I love ... that you first took pics of your feet & forehead. Now you take full shots. I like seeing all my Kell-Bell. I like seeing every pic and thinking," WOW she looks amazing." And then I think, "I want your trash." And then I think ..." I sure hope that she looks in the mirror everyday and says, 'I'm amazing!'" For both your looks and your shear awesomeness! Love Love Love you!