i would like to say that there are three ways to know if i am feeling mentally ill. 1. cate gets a school lunch, not healthy food from home. 2. we do not have our ten minute piano time together after school, and 3. i do not blog.
these three things have been true for the last seven days. and then, monday, october 3, 2011 saw a lovingly made home lunch put in the backpack, a fun little piano theory exercise together after school, and here i am! look at me blogging!
i would also like to say that i learned a few things from my mom about living with these unpredictable states of mind. even when you are temporarily not up to your, shall we call it, "best" self- family scripture study and prayer and making your bed/ tidying the house are non-negotiables. i can do those things in robot i hate life mode. she also taught me that cereal is in fact acceptable for dinner and therefore it does not cause me guilt (the way the original three facts i pointed out do), even when i serve* it many nights in a row.
*serve: "go get yourself some cereal".
one clarification: while i do feel guilty for any slight in cate's routine, i don't feel guilty when i don't blog. i just feel sad. i like to say things. i like to take pictures. and when the pleasure is lost from those activities, well, i know i have the mean reds.
was it conference that pulled me out of it? yes! and no. the "bad week" was over at the same time that i heard elder hales talk (please watch, please) and then the universe lined up and i felt like i could perform the duties of my life again with some confidence and commitment and capability.
so anyway, i had a very good day today. i hope you did as well. if not, chin up. pray, hold on. and remember, it will be okay in the end. if it's not okay, it's not the end. also, you probably are just experiencing pms.