my happy little life

sunday thought/ trying to use my iphone for good rather than solitaire

when i need a boost and i'm cozy in bed or in my car, etc. i look to the archives on lds.org. the other day i found this, and have read it a dozen times since. also, today coco texted me a quote  which i needed to read so badly and really should read everyday of my life. it's from gordon b. hinckley's speech at his wife's funeral:

"it isn't as bad as you sometimes think it is. it all works out. don't worry. i say that to myself every morning. it will all work out. put your trust in god, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. the lord will not forsake us. he will not forsake us. if we will put our trust in him, if we will pray to him, if we will live worthy of his blessings, he will hear our prayers." ...hope your sunday is peaceful and hopeful...

i believe this

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another message from my chalkboard

kidneys and crafting and inspiration

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i'm stone free suckaz! got the last one blasted this week and today i feel almost as good as new. trying to get back to normal life and forget about the last two months...

laying around these weeks i have had a lot of time to think. my mind wandered again and again to how much i miss updating my etsy shop and crafting daily. i chose a year ago to spend my free day hours working as a wellness counselor because i was getting so sad being home alone all the time, leaving my etsy shop pathetic and empty, and this blog often neglected. but i miss it. like, a lot.

sooo...i began work on an etsy update. can't wait to share! i hope this year i can do better at balancing. i get such tunnel vision when i am into something. balance is so hard for me (i think for every woman). i'm going to start scheduling my day- and include regular hours to craft. an infertile consolation prize = time for hobbies.

i am finding inspiration today in these words (read here):

"progress, and improve upon and make beautiful everything around you. cultivate the earth, and cultivate your minds. build cities, adorn your habitations, make gardens, orchards, and vineyards, and render the earth so pleasant that when you look upon your labors you may do so with pleasure, and that angels may delight to come and visit your beautiful locations." -brigham young

a bunch of thoughts on happiness

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"each morning when i open my eyes i say to myself: i, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. i can choose which it shall be. yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. i have just one day, today, and i’m going to be happy in it." -groucho marx

"we tend to forget that happiness doesn’t come as a result of getting something we don’t have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have." -frederick koening

"a person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly. you can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely." -roald dahl

"if you observe a really happy man you will find him building a boat, writing a symphony, educating his son, growing double dahlias in his garden or looking for dinosaur eggs in the gobi desert. he will not be searching for happiness as if it were a collar button that has rolled under the radiator. he will not be striving for it as a goal in itself. he will have become aware that he is happy in the course of living life twenty-four crowded hours of the day." -w. beran wolfe

"have regular hours for work and play; make each day both useful and pleasant, and prove that you understand the worth of time by employing it well. then youth will be delightful, old age will bring few regrets, and life will become a beautiful success." -louisa may alcott

other stuff:

+ happy martin luther king day! i asked cate if she knew who he was, and she said, "yes, i learned why he is a king". haha.

+ did you see austin city limits this weekend? it was so good. here's a preview of black keys next week. awesome.

+ i am having kidney stones blasted tomorrow. blast.

+ i just told cate it was time to get ready for piano lessons. she replied, "i quit". it made me laugh really hard because that's exactly what i used to say to my mom when she told me to get ready for piano lessons. my mom would drag me to them, and dang it, i will drag her too. and she will be very happy playing the piano when she's old, just like i am.

+ dear asha, i prayed for you after i read your comment yesterday. oh boy, what a day. i am so sorry! someday you will laugh about it, right?

right now

"i’ve been absolutely terrified every moment of my life - and i’ve never let it keep me from doing a single thing i wanted to do." - georgia o’keefe

i am crying reading this quote. using its message for another day's motivation.

ps- everything is fine, don't worry. just my simple daily internal combat with paralyzing fear about something i can't put my finger on. ya know.